I am a weakling.

So my internship is less than a week away and I think I'm ready. Ha. Well if I had clean laundry, then I would be ready. These last few weeks (really only like a week and a half, it seems like longer) I've done a lot of thinking and meditating. Through this I have realized, that God is truly awesome and that He has great things in store for me this summer and fall. I've also realized that I'm extremely weak, I lie way to much to myself saying that I'm strong. When Jesus was telling me this I really didn't want to hear this, I was like Jesus I want to be strong, make me strong. Being wonderful and always telling me how funny my plans are Jesus was like no and gave me this lovely verse also.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
"But he replied, "My kindness is all you need. My power is strongest when you are weak." So if Christ keeps giving me his power, I will gladly brag about how weak I am. Yes, I am glad to be weak or insulted or mistreated or to have troubles and sufferings, if it is for Christ. Because when I am weak, I am strong."

Granted, I wasn't that thrilled when I heard this, I thought to myself oh joy I'm gonna be a big mess this summer. But as I continued to think about it, I realized the beauty that God has in store for me these next 7 months of transformation.  I realized that even if I was a mess all was going to be ok because Jesus would be holding me in his hands. And that His love would be shinning through me as I lean on Him to survive.  Which I feel is more powerful than me saying something to someone.  

So as I am preparing to go out into the world, I have this wonderful peace knowing that all will be ok.

I seriously don't know how people without Jesus survive.